I am new at this, and I have no idea what I am actually supposed to be doing. So I am just going to write what ever it is that I am thinking and well or having issues with. so I guess here goes nothing.I am not legally married to my husband, but we look at each other like we are. We are supposed to get married when he gets home. He is serving a 6.5 year set in prison. and I have known him since the second grade. He was actually my first boyfriend my first kiss. He has like a little less then 2 years left before he comes home. Well his mom is not in the best of health. She is legally blind but the sweetest lady and she is so strong. This past week she has been in the hospital, they found out that the left side of her heart was not pumping any blood. They had to go in and do a heart bypass. She is doing good. She is home. But when she first went into the hospital she told me not to tell my husband (her son) knowing that he would freak out and she thought it would be better if she tell him herself so that he knows that everything was okay cause he was talking to her. I was debating all week long what to do. cause I knew he needed to know, but she had asked me not to. I wanted to respect mom and her wishes. But my husband needed to know about his mom. Well he found out by his dad which is no longer together with mom. My husband called me and asked me if I knew I couldnt lie so I told him everything that I knew. Which wasnt much due to the things i knew I myself was finding out on facebook. He is so mad at me. I know i did the wrong thing by the choices that I did not tell him which I know now that I should have. My husband mean the world to me. I want to fix this. I love him more then anything. he is saying that I lied to him which i did not lie to him at all. but now he is saying that he can not trust me! I am not getting this at all. I know that he probably is just really mad and hurt and he knows that he can yell at me and take it out on me ( with out hitting me he would never do that) and I would not go anywhere. BLAH!!! I dont want to lose him. I want him in my life. and every time I bring it up he just tells me that he is still here. and that he loves me! I really didnt mean to hurt him! I didnt mean to let him down! GAH I now know that the saying is true... MEN CANT LIVE WITH THEM SURE ENOUGH CANT LIVE WITH OUT THEM!!!!
